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2 Far South
05:03
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I watched a migration northeastbound
I split from good sense and found myself too far south
I walked the Alameda at 7am
I thought of Louisiana, hoped the river banks would break
Who could have predicted this
In all fairness, anyone could
I smiled politely and put my back down
Walked new streets and found not much sense in where we are now, we're better off in the ground
There's no comfort in where there could've been welcoming arms and a sense of being
I can't give much more than this
From a mattress on the floor the sunlight streamed in
It could've almost felt like 2017 again
Let's reduce this to a rumour, a great untruth
One last look at me
One last look through you
Who could have expected this
In all fairness, anyone would
I smiled politely and put my back down
Walked new streets and found not much sense in where we are now
We're better off in the ground
There's no comfort in where there could've been welcoming arms and a sense of being
I can't give much more than this
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You can play the saint
You can swallow sorries
You can paint me how you want
Replace us with hate
Retell your own stories
And tell them how you want
I've got this thing in me for you that's leaving
An idea of who you used to be
What, you think I wouldn't leave it if I could...
I think of who I left at home that Autumn
I lied through my teeth and paid for it
I was projecting, I'm still a traitor
I can't explain away my awful behaviour
How could I have even been so thoughtless
I lied through my teeth and paid for it
With my complacency
It's too easy to seem
Much harder to be
Time is a bind
A fight between being alone and the loneliness
Between everything taken and everything left
I could do without all of this
I've got this thing in me from you that's grieving
An idea of who we used to be
What, you think I wouldn't leave it if I could...
I think of who I left at home that Autumn
I lied through my teeth and paid for it
I was projecting, I'm still a traitor
I can't explain away my awful behaviour
How could I have even been so thoughtless
I lied through my teeth and paid for it
With my complacency
It's too easy to seem
Much harder to be
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3. |
Common Ghost
03:35
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I need you like the forest needs a fire
I need to leave it for a minute until I miss it
I need to know that I still know the line that separates what I'm missing from what I don't want
What I need's a new state of mind
-That pushes me aside
That pushes you aside and out of my sight
If it was easy then I guess we wouldn't be here
With this common ghost that we both carry around
I don't see you now
Let's numb our senses to the sound
Of doors closing behind us and stepping out into the rain
As if four years weren't a waste
I guess it's fair to say
We could've never have expected better endings
I need you like the morning needs the light
Or at least I did
We were staying up so as not to miss it
We separate, we sit there, we're happy
Now I think of what I'm missing
This isn't what I want, nor what I needed
How did we get here though
I was a kid not long ago
If it weren't so hard I wouldn't be here
With this common ghost that we both carry around
I don't need you now
Let's numb our senses to the sound
Of doors closing behind us and stepping out into the rain
As if four years weren't a waste
I guess it's fair to say
We could've never have expected better endings
'How did we get here though'
If truth be told it's whatever so I'll keep this brief
Just close the door before you leave
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4. |
No Boys
03:40
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You were never in a rush to rise
The mornings were calm
The mornings were long
The cat pulled up the floorboards and scratched at the walls
You suggest we take a drive
We had a year there, in the middle, into it
When were both enough
You'd sing that song that had me splitting sides in the passenger seat on a drive never too long
You're laughing too, singing and dancing at me
Back when we cared
Now I sleep alone in the middle of the bed that we shared
What would you think about me now
The new ends
The lost love
The loose threads
The old friends
You'd sing that song that had me splitting sides in the passenger seat on a drive never too long
You're laughing too, singing and dancing at me
Back when we cared
Now I sleep alone in the middle of the bed that we shared
Anything or nothing at all will do
That's enough for me and you
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Bloodletting
03:28
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I ready my decline
Divide the pieces
Yours and mine
My life the trainwreck, The Grand Guignol
Each daily affirmation just a moral I've sold
I fall short and, after all, who'd have thought that I'd amount to anything more than a nomad, tearaway, hermit in my hole
Incapable of taking on advice I've told
Between my bad intentions and my poor design there's still a sense that everything'll be alright
You put me on a bad track
I'll never leave love again for youth
You put me on a bad track
I'll never leave love again for you
Now I'll take my time
Discard the remains
Keep me tired
I'm sleeping early because I'm done with days
It's been a good while since I've felt this way
I was ready to lay it all out on the line again for you
I'm bored of these streets, these feelings, these evenings
I loved two people
Does that make me unlucky / lucky / idle / clueless / selfish / stupid / a piece of shit
Because I'm sure feeling it
No we resign ourselves again to separate homes
I don't mind the space now
I don't mind being alone
But I've I've grown tired of the change and the moves
I don't know who to blame nowadays
Myself of you
You put me on a bad track
I'll never leave love again for youth
You put me on a bad track
I'll never leave love again for you
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6. |
Juniper
03:17
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I'm unlearning my denial
Searching for any trace or remains of common sense left in me
Taking deep breaths, slowing paces
Honestly, I'm trying to beat any sense of urgency out of me
Count on fingers your declines
The long night, the longer miles
Regretting yourself to sleep
Love comes and goes
I gained myself a loose tooth
You a tattoo, maybe two
Take what you need from me and then leave
So typical for me
I'm erasing tooth-gapped smiles
Matching scars, the choices harder
The evidence plain to see
Are you tired of lying to yourself
The evidence for all to see
Love comes and goes
I gained myself a loose tooth
You a tattoo, maybe two
Take what you need from me and then leave
So typical of you and me
I know that you were scared of it
But you could've dared to commit
She takes the fall from bird to drake
It's less meaningful that way
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I Know (i know)
04:12
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I know I'm not giving enough at home
It's taking everything out of me
I was willing to go along with it
I'd sabotaged before
I'd do it again
I'd do it for a night, for forever
For anything but friends
I knew that I'd end up alone
It was taking everything out of me
I know I wasn't giving enough at home
It was taking everything out of me
I was unwilling to look ahead
I'd felt it before
I should've learned from then
There's no 'for a night'
There's no 'forever'
There's no 'just friends'
I saw on a wall out of town painted black
'How's this for heartbreak?'
I thought, what I'd give to go back
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All Roses Waning (I)
03:43
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In a perfect sense of spite I want to outlive everyone
With tail in hand, homebound, and the ampersand that once sat between our names in vain now
We understand new plans and the never-cans
Now there's nothing in the way of you, and me, and the grave
Looking at old photographs it's been a while since we've looked that way
There's a struggle in convincing someone that you're a good idea
I know that in time this feeling will leave but either way you'll be sick of the sight of me
This is an ode to lasting love, and breaking up, and feeling fucked
I know that in time these thoughts will leave but until then you'll be sick of the sight of me
It's been raining on the inside ever since you left
With water damage, waiting for the ground to set
Everything here is just another form of temporary, and surviving, injury
I've been talking about your death with an openness that makes people feel uncomfortable
It's been a while since we've looked that way
There's a struggle in convincing someone that you're a good idea
I know that in time this feeling will leave but either way you'll be sick of the sight of me
This is an ode to lasting love, and breaking up, and feeling fucked
I know that in time these thoughts will leave but until then you'll be sick of the sight of me
-Glass on the beach
-Buried in your feet
-Didn't even notice the bleeding
-No sense, no feeling
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9. |
The Ending Of It All
03:23
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So, this is it
The burning of the hypocrite
My burdens in the silhouette
I'd been coasting
It was easy living
I was missing something
I've long known we'd probably be better off alone
The headache incurred
The great cat fur purge
Replacing possessions and the habits I'd learned
This could be fun
We could keep pretending
-It's the ending of it all
If you get the feeling of a love receding
It's the ending of it all
-Shake off our loss
-Time was cruel to us
-Trapped in permanence
When the shadow of fairweather friends starts appearing
It's the ending of it
I loved you
You loved you
I'll do better for myself than this
So, this is it
I lie to myself
Spill my own secrets in the bathroom mirror
To the same old tired-out look but older
I've still got a mind to roam
Even alone
Even and evening on the phone, phoning it in
Pretending I'm going to be the one to want the best for me
This could be fun
We could keep pretending
-It's the ending of it all
If you get the feeling of a love receding
It's the ending of it all
-Shake off our loss
-Time was cruel to us
-Trapped in permanence
When the shadow of fairweather friends starts appearing
It's the ending of it
I loved you
You loved you
I'll do better for myself
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10. |
Nighttime Type
02:29
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I told myself this time that I wouldn't bend my pride
I'll never be the 9-5, TV in the the nighttime type
I should feel sorry but I just feel bitter
I tell you to be clear but it couldn't be clearer
I was gearing up to cut ties
You reached out crying
Telling me your dog died
The lights of our old house are out
The longing's enhanced
Love doesn't always give back
There were bottles in the corner
Cat fur in my clothes
I didn't think I'd spend my last year here alone
I was gearing up to cut ties
You reached out crying
Telling me your dog died
The lights of our old house are out
The longing's enhanced
Love doesn't always give back
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Kid Chameleon Sheffield, UK
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