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There's A Drive
03:11
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There's a drive
Two hours to your home
We should make the best of this
But I know we won't
I'll look for you at the window
Scratching your nails out on the panes
I know how you feel because I feel it too
But goodbye will never be goodbye for long
I've abandoned my child
There's a drive
Two hours home
I turn to the backseat to talk
But you're long gone
I think of you at the window
Crying your eyes out on the panes
I know how you feel because I feel it too
But goodbye will never be goodbye for long
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2. |
Mine To Lose
02:17
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I don't mean to complicate
I've made my mistakes
In a touch that's a touch too late
I'll take this as my point to leave
This is an ending of best beginnings
I'm seeing it off
And now I'm lost
Now here's a feeling that I hate
I've made my mistakes
I can't stake my claim in this
You weren't mine to lose
This is an ending of best beginnings
I'm seeing it off
Then I'm gone
This is an ending of best beginnings
I'm seeing it off
And now I'm lost
And now I'm gone
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3. |
Spin / XO
02:57
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I'd been feeling pretty low but it had been that way for a while
So I wondered is this me now
I'm still my biggest problem
It doesn't take much for me to spin
I can take five letters and ruin my day
It's been three years and I've still got three great ways to feel like a disappointment
-Wake up
-Breathe in
-Breathe out
And that's about it
I don't want to feel it again
Because I'm usually a glimpse away from reliving everything
Can you see through this
Sign off with an XO to me
Call it habitual
Or you could just mean it
I still awaken in a state of unrest
Always thinking that every next thing I do will be my best but instead...
I take three letters and ruin my day
It's been four years and I've still got five great ways to feel like a disappointment
-Turn up
-Walk in
-Break down
-Step back
-Burn out
And that's about it
I don't want to do this again
Because I'm always an inch away from just leaving everything
Can you see through this
Sign off with an XO to me
Call it habitual
Or you could just mean it
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I found a Chinese coin
But there was writing on it
And I don’t know what it meant
Maybe I’ll call a friend
Then give it to the youth
Head to the water with it
Make her wishes come true
Are you brave enough to brace the cold in Lake Superior
I took her to see the rooms
But there were people in them
I don’t know who they were
The same blinds are still up
And the bike chain locked to nothing but the memories
Let’s keep them there for good
Because I see them enough in sleep
The weight in your heart and the cut marks on your arm, I know
Because I was promised life but got an ending to a start I loved
The off-cuff remarks and the phone calls after dark I took
Not knowing better than I should with the habits that I shook in time
Now it feels like another life of mine
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5. |
Swarm Of Bees
02:47
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I'll pray to you on Halloween
Though I'm no better
I still look like shit to me
This conversation
This swarm of bees
It won't be fun
We'll both get stung
I can see a storm this eve
Now I've got the sense to avoid it
I lied to you in the Summer heat
In a time when honesty honestly didn't mean much to me
Day-to-day malaise and the want to be
Anywhere but there
This conversation
This swarm of bees
It won't be fun
We'll both get stung
I can see a storm this eve
Coming straight towards you and me
Now I've got the sense to avoid it
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Late sleeper, early riser
Up and ready
Always tired
Revelling in the skyline
In this so-called life of mine
Speed reader
Little liar
Secret meetings
Grips tighten
Meeting beneath the skyline
In this so-called life of mine
I know that I can be selfish
But I hope you get better
I know that I can be so selfish
But I hope to get better
Peace keeper
Dream believer
It's not easy
Plaster peeler
I still remember the skyline
From that so-called life of mine
-I can't sleep
-I only count the days
-Cracks in the ceiling
-From when you would turn away
I know that I can be selfish
But I hope you get better
I know that I can be so selfish
But I hope to get better
Believe it, I'll leave it
Believe it or not I'm here
You can tell me I'm wrong
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Are you calling me out for a past that I'd forgotten about
I suggest that you look deeper for the reasonings on how I became what I did
A regret I'll insist was directly affected by the way you'd talk about him, or him
A kid, looking back
That's how I justify it
It's the pull of the bulrushes
To get me away from this
I'm unreaching the reeds
For a way back to bliss
I used to exist for misery
Now I live for the opposite
You say you miss your family and your friends
At least you've got god
To protect you
To forget you
To pretend
Your teeth go from yellow
To black
To falling out
Which isn't much different to how it is with us now
It's the pull of the bulrushes
To get me away from this
I'm unreaching the reeds
For a way back to bliss
I used to exist for misery
Now I live for the opposite
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8. |
Goodbye You
03:41
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Can you hear it
Are you listening
These visits feel more and more like hospice trips
God knows that I won't miss this
Do you hear it
I should've left well enough alone
But I just put another foot wrong
Do you still kiss the hand that feeds
Or are you on to better things
Goodbye you
Whoever knew that a parting word was all that this would have amounted to
So, here’s to all that we put each other through
Can you feel it
Can you breathe it in
I spent the trips silent, tongue-tied
You spent them lying about a lie
Can you feel it
I should've left well enough alone
But I just went on calling you home
Do you still kiss the hand that feeds
Or are you on to better things
Goodbye you
Whoever knew that a parting word was all that this would have amounted to
So, here’s to all that we put each other through
Do you still bite the hand that feeds
Or are you on to different things
Goodbye you
One I once knew
Even though we're not acquainted now you still go on to prove your hold on the truth
Here's to all that we put each other through
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9. |
Who I Am / Who I've Been
03:18
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A dying daisy on the doorstep
A blood orange on the table
A reminder of what I've seen
For now I think I'm able
To think about who I am
To think about who I've been
And the times where I carried on
When I should've given in
Though you think I can't be trusted
That's a whole other thing
Because I've had chances before
And I've only gone and squandered them
You were still umbilical
Snatched from the navel
You had to fend for yourself
Because I was still unable
To think about who I am
To think about who I'd been
And the times where I carried on
When I could've given in
Though I probably can't be trusted
That's a whole other thing
Because I've had chances before
And I've only gone and squandered them
I hope that in me
You found a place you can grieve
A place you can feel a little more at ease
If you're going to kill me
Kill me quietly
Remorseful but content
A new way to bleed
Now I'll think about who I am
To think about who I'd been
And the times where I carried on
When I should've given in
Though I can be trusted
That's a whole other thing
Because I've had chances before
And I've only gone and squandered them
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10. |
Trust Fall
02:21
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If I write it down enough times then I might just understand it
That I can forget this
But the same thoughts keep coming around
If I say it aloud enough times then I might just hear it
I might be wrong, I might be forgiven
But the shame will keep coming around
I’m bound to love
I’m bound to fail
I’m bound to give up
I’m bound to be ignored
But it never stopped me before
If I think it enough times then I might just see it
I can be convincing
But myself there’s no getting around
If I mentioned it enough times then will anyone believe it
I’ll tear a hole in every head
The word will soon start getting around
I’m bound to hope
I’m bound to lie
I’m bound to call
I’m bound to the trust fall
And it’s never stopped me before
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Kid Chameleon Sheffield, UK
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A promising blend of jangling guitars, melancholy lyrics, and irresistible indie pop melodies.
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